Accomplishments ~ or the lack there of...

Interestingly enough as I sat to type, "Accomplishments" was the first to pop into my mind...then quickly followed by "or the lack there of..."

The place I am today is quite interesting in itself (pardon the pun). As I find myself in a very self examinatory place, following the loss (hesitation using that word) of my job, my house (note I said house, NOT Home), my cats, my man (per se), and that is only what I can see on the surface. The loss of my salvation is even questionable, very frightful to consider, but it has come to mind, by which the ever gentle leading and guiding of the Holy Spirit that is ever present within me, has lead me to rededicate my heart once again...maybe its a "Layer'er" thing?!?! Each new layer unveiled needs to be Christened? Sounds like it fits... and as far as "losing" those things, while yes they meant a great deal to me, and each one I did not just "possess" but each one I considered a gift from the Maker of the Light, and Giver of Gifts and I also hope that I nurtured, loved and cared for each one as I was intended, especially the "cats and man" part, since they are living creatures. The grief has been so, sooooooo heavy at times, that even looking up was exhausting. I am still in recovery mode and have gained 10 pounds ~ blah. Evidence of emptiness and INappropriate filling. Need I say more...NO.

Accomplishments...Ah, Yes what I have accomplished is of greater value...I am a Grandma to Noah Thomas, THE most handsome young man and when he and his wonderful Mama came to visit (Thank you Most Gracious God) he shared with me most treasured secrets from Heaven...I'm still trying to decifer them, but they are precious non the less! Another accomplishment, twelve years in the making...Katie Marie graduates tomorrow ~ oh how bitter sweet. It seemed so long, but today, it was a short lived time. I am blessed to join in her accomplishment, she blesses me, even though she is 18 and well we all know what goes along with that! But she is a beautiful young woman, who is not afraid to speak her mind, uphold her values and grab life by the horns!

There is much more to add, but I must get going, I have to get my hair trimmed for it has been too long, and even though I have been weighed down very heavily with grief, I do want to atleast look presentable tomorrow!