Monday, January 17, 2011

Name Change~

Ok, I don't really know how to "sugar coat" this. My name is Kari Michele. I have gone the first part of my life as Kari. Everyone I know knows me by that. I have had some major, no wait... MAJOR life changes. The first part of my life, I have been known to "carry" burdens, lots that are truely not my own. And, found myself with so much burden upon my life and heart, that it has weighed me down terribly, leaving me empty and exhausted. So, during some serious self examination and "chucking" of a whole bunch of crap that really was not my problem. I found myself in a weird place of "I just don't care" land. Well, it was very foreign to me because I have spend my life more or less "meddleing" in others affairs, and helping carry their burdens, that the Lord has NOT asked me to bear.

I found this extremely interesting today that as I hit this place of "I just don't care" about so much "land," that I was also beating myself up about it. Because it was not my "normal" way. So, I thought I had really done some major thing wrong. And, granted, there are still many things that break my heart and cause me to pray and lift up and even possibly be involved in. But, the majority not. So, this evening, as our Lifeguards meeting was going on and discussion was getting deeper, I felt the urge to confess, that "I have just hit a place of I just don't care about so much stuff and I don't know if it should bother me or not?" Well, the LORD once again spoke through Todd and said, "let me help you rephrase that...."You are not 'carrying' so much stuff anymore, so you can carry what I have called for you to carry"..

So, hence the name change....no more "Kari our burdens, Kari" but simply Michele. I have always loved my middle name, legally, there is nothing I need to do to change it, it's already legal! :) I'm sure that some people will think I have really jumped off the deep end...Well good! I have! And straight into the arms of my Savior! And, otherwise, I could care less about what they think!! :)

Wow! What a day!

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