Friday, October 2, 2009
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Ears, Eyes, and Humility...~
First of all, I am very surprised I even remembered my login! Miracle!
So, SOOO, much has changed since I last wrote...
Anyway~
Blessed are your eyes because they see,
and your ears because they hear. For I tell you the truth,
many prophets and righteous men longed to see what you see
but did not see it, and to hear what you hear but did not hear it.
Matthew 13: 16-17
Coffee explosion...
Well, I have this internal rebellion that is being "refined." It's ugly and I hate it. Kind of reminds me of the Mercy Me song that tells its "self/ego" to just go away... Oh, how I wish it were that easy. But, I live to tell it's NOT. I am wanting so badly to grab the wisdom and understand to notice it BEFORE I'm in the middle of "oops" and have nauseatingly felt the pain of disappointing or crushing those who I adore and who love me. And I am forever grateful to the unconditional love that oozes from them. And, then I battle the shadow of "I'm just not worthy of being loved like this" ~ Wow... one end of the spectrum to the other.
So, long short... I woke up this morning "very happy" and my morning routine went well, and smooth and I was even ahead of schedule, almost early! Lol, and for me that is an achievement! Then, I couldn't just gooooooo to work, NO, I had to think about getting a Mocha from McD's! That little voice, said "no..." I shushd it and got my mocha... Ah, I just love the first taste of cold whipped cream mixed with my delicious mocha! Sweet! I'm thinking.... Mocha AND I'm early! and... well anyway, almost got to work, and "for some strange reason" thought it would be a great idea to turn the lid around to get the rest of the whipped cream stuck to it, off...
then it's like someone just grabbed the cup and it EXPLODED! All over me, my car, my cozy sheepskin coat, my clothes... And as I drove the rest of the way to work, with chocolate and coffee and whipped cream, dripping off of my face, I heard loud and clear ... "LISTEN."
Ouch.
So, SOOO, much has changed since I last wrote...
Anyway~
Blessed are your eyes because they see,
and your ears because they hear. For I tell you the truth,
many prophets and righteous men longed to see what you see
but did not see it, and to hear what you hear but did not hear it.
Matthew 13: 16-17
Coffee explosion...
Well, I have this internal rebellion that is being "refined." It's ugly and I hate it. Kind of reminds me of the Mercy Me song that tells its "self/ego" to just go away... Oh, how I wish it were that easy. But, I live to tell it's NOT. I am wanting so badly to grab the wisdom and understand to notice it BEFORE I'm in the middle of "oops" and have nauseatingly felt the pain of disappointing or crushing those who I adore and who love me. And I am forever grateful to the unconditional love that oozes from them. And, then I battle the shadow of "I'm just not worthy of being loved like this" ~ Wow... one end of the spectrum to the other.
So, long short... I woke up this morning "very happy" and my morning routine went well, and smooth and I was even ahead of schedule, almost early! Lol, and for me that is an achievement! Then, I couldn't just gooooooo to work, NO, I had to think about getting a Mocha from McD's! That little voice, said "no..." I shushd it and got my mocha... Ah, I just love the first taste of cold whipped cream mixed with my delicious mocha! Sweet! I'm thinking.... Mocha AND I'm early! and... well anyway, almost got to work, and "for some strange reason" thought it would be a great idea to turn the lid around to get the rest of the whipped cream stuck to it, off...
then it's like someone just grabbed the cup and it EXPLODED! All over me, my car, my cozy sheepskin coat, my clothes... And as I drove the rest of the way to work, with chocolate and coffee and whipped cream, dripping off of my face, I heard loud and clear ... "LISTEN."
Ouch.
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